Harlow’s FIRST Birthday. Our Harlow Louise. The little girl who forever changed our world. Sometimes I can’t believe I am actually a parent. Like how did that happen? I mean, I know how it happened … humph. But if I am being completely honest, I never thought I was going to be a mom. I toyed around with the idea that, yea maybe, I would/could, but with my age slowly creeping towards mid-thirties I accepted that it wasn’t in the cards for me. Then it happened. I became a mom on March 28, 2017 to the most perfect, beautiful, amazing baby girl. My universe expanded. My heart exploded. I was in love like I’ve never been in love before. No one can prepare you for it; the love you feel. No one can prepare you for parenthood either.
Each season of Harlow’s life has taught me something new. I am in awe of her curiosity and wonder. Sometimes I grieve the fact that that season in my life has passed – where everything is new. Everything is exciting. Then I remember that I have beautiful Harlow to experience everything again through her eyes. What a gift. There are days when I just don’t think I can do it. Being a parent is TOUGH. But by some sort of miracle, we make it through the day. And I would do it over again and again. And again.
So when Harlow’s 1st Birthday came upon us I wanted to celebrate her the best way I know how: lots of hugs, kisses, and food. I wanted it to be special. That’s why I decided to make my Grandma Grace’s “Downy Yellow Butter Cake” with Lemon Buttercream Frosting. My Grandma’s recipes are special to me! This was my first time baking an actual cake from scratch so I had to do a trial run the week before, naturally. It was good, but I wasn’t satisfied. Baking is hard. Thanks to the help of my talented baker friend, Kelly, I got the necessary baking tools (spatula, cake boards, etc) and a few baking tips.
The second (and final) cake turned out great! Definitely better than the first. I wish I would have gotten a picture of cake #1. It wasn’t pretty, but Andrew gracefully ate the entire thing! I could tell right off the bat the second cake was going to be better. I’ll share the recipe later in another post. It’s my grandmother’s so it is worth sharing! Downy cake is almost biscuit like (actually might make great biscuits) so it paired nicely with the light buttercream. I had faux flowers that I thought would make the cake springy and pretty. For my first cake, I’d say it was successful! And Harlow liked it – that’s all that mattered.
We celebrated Harlow’s First Birthday with balloons (her current obsession), cake, gifts, a birthday lunch at Pickled Peach with her Nanny and I, and a birthday party at Summit with friends/family. I am forever grateful for the group of people here in Davidson that treat Harlow like family. The weather was perfect. She was happy! I love her. This past weekend we celebrated her again in Ohio. I love seeing her around family. She was dancing, laughing, WALKING (what?!), and just being so funny. I hope that one day we can all be closer together. One day.
The days are long, but the years are short. I hope you always have your sense of wonder, beautiful girl. You make me a better person in ways I never knew how to be before.
I love you,